Sunday Blues

Is it just me or does everyone get the blues on Sunday evening when the realization of work in the morning sets in? (If your work week starts on a different day than Monday, then apply this statement to the night of your final day off.) This happened to me in the military and it's happening again now that I'm a teacher. Everyone says that if you love your job you won't feel that way. Maybe that's my problem. I didn't love my specific job in the military, although I loved the military itself. And I'm pretty sure that I don't love teaching. I enjoy seeing the growth of my students and knowing that I can make a positive impact in their lives, but I think love is a strong word. In fact, sometimes I feel like the worst teacher in the world because I don't seem to feel as strongly about teaching as other teachers do. To me, it's a job. I do it because I have to provide for my family somehow; it's a perk that I get to make a difference.

Right now, I'm supposed to be working on lesson plans and prepping materials for center work this week, but I just don't want to. I want to be able to spend the entirety of my weekend enjoying time with my family. You know how some people get tired of being at home with their family after lengthy periods and can't wait to escape to work or for their children to return to school? I don't get that way. I thoroughly enjoyed winter break, spring break, and summer break (I know...luxuries afforded to me by the fact that I am a teacher). I wish I could spend every moment of my life simply exploring and enjoying the world with my family. That would be absolutely amazing.

Maybe one day I will have the opportunity to work from home or find that magical job I can classify as "my calling". Until then, I'll continue to mope on Sunday evenings. I guess I should go write my lesson plans while listening to this song:

**Please note that the name of the song is actually "Storms Never Last" not "STORM Never Last", but I couldn't find any other versions on YouTube (alright, I didn't feel like looking any harder...I'm supposed to be doing lesson plans, after all!) that weren't a duet with Jessi Colter.**